Ah.... Sweet Humbling Experiences

The Lord just keeps blessing me with weight loss.  I am now down 136.2 lbs.  Saturday, I went out window shopping and went to Nordtrom's Rack.  I really did not intend to purchase anything, but a clearance on black jeans caught my eye.  Perfect for riding on the Harley was my thought. Loved that they had a jewel design on the back pockets.  I picked up a pair and did not try them on, actually thinking that they would fit me down the road a month of two. Afterall, I have not seen this size jean in YEARS!  Took them home and hung them in my closet.  Monday morning before work I decided to give them a try and see how tight they were on me.  Wonder of Wonders! They FIT me NOW!!  I was SO excited, I cut off the price tag and decided to wear them to work!  I just love them!  Today, I decided to wear them again.  I carefully laid them out on the bed while I searched for a sweater to wear with it.  As I picked them up to put them on, a little baggie caught my eye.  "What is THIS?" thought I.   Extra jewels for the jean pocket attached to the tag on the back of my jeans!  OH MY WORD.  I had worn these all day Monday with this little baggie sticking off the back end of my jeans!    Here am I in the clouds, thinking how great these look, how thin my legs are getting!  Ah.... such are these times that the Lord reigns us in and says.  "I am the Lord.  I am the controller of all things.  You are human and prone to pride and error."  Ok.  I was a bit proud, OK, maybe a LOT proud.    Thank you, Lord for the ability to laugh at myself and not always have to take myself so seriously.  I am proud of the weight loss.  But more than proud, I am so thankful to YOU, for giving me this new lease on life.  Without Your support, Your help, Lord, I could not have gotten where I am.  And I thank you also, Lord, for my husband, who have been such a tremendous support. He has encouraged me and complimented me and talked me up to his friends.  He has shown me that he is proud of me and appreciates my efforts and he eats what I serve him!!!  lol    Aside from You, Lord, he has been my biggest supporter and encourager.  And I have a couple of friends, Lord, that are a gift from you.  One that has known me for years and has seen me in many sizes!  For the encouragement and the compliment that I am looking like my mother.  And for another friend that hasn't known me as long but is just as close and dear.  Who with tears in her eyes, told me the other day that I am like looking at a whole other person!   For family that is happy to see their mom, grandma getting healthy so that she can prayerfully be around longer for all of them.  I have been getting compliments that I have never heard before, words that I have never associated with me.  This journey is not about compliments but it is about getting healthier and being the best person that I can be.  I am thankful that the Lord has and is with me every step of the way.  And thank you, again, for humble moments.  Always keep me real!  And always help me stay true to only You, Lord. 

This is a fabulous journey that I have embarked upon.  I didn't think I could ever be at a normal/healthy size again.  Take Shape for Life has been a God send for me.  If you are reading this and you feel that you are at the end of your rope, perhaps this is the answer for you.  I invite you to check out my website www.healthierishappier.tslf.com .  I would love to help encourage and support you to a healthier and happier YOU!

Week 37 and 134 lbs GONE!

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Week 37 and I am down 134 lbs.  Only 44 lbs left to go!  I am feeling sooo much better and have so much more energy.  I feel like 60 IS the new 40!  So thankful to the Lord and to www.healthierishappier.tsfl.com for this wonderful, healthier life!!!!  I am LOVING my new jeggins from HSN.com.  They are part of the Diane Gilman 2 collection.  I have been loving her clothing for a long time.  I am so excited to get to goal and pair up more of her great clothing!!!!  

 

Week 32!

The scales told me -3.6 for this week making my total 122.6 since June 11, 2011!!   This week wasn't easy because we had our power out for 2 days but I was still able to stay on track and lose the weight! :)  YIPPEE!  I feel better each and every day!  I am 56 lbs from goal!  What an incredible and wonderful journey!!  www.healthierishappier.tsfl.com

Week 30 and still going strong!

End of week 30 and I am 116.4 lbs lighter!  The first picture of me with our Golden is after 60 lbs.  The second of me is on Sunday after weighing in -116.4!  I can't begin to tell you the difference in how I feel!!  My girlfriend and I talked about this after she took some pics of me for tracking my journey. I opened up and told her things I hadn't told anyone!  Not even my husband!!!   She cried for me!  And then of course I cried!   There were things in my life that I was hiding and holding inside.  I could not share these things with others.  On the outside, I appeared to be smiling but on the inside, a whole different story!  I was miserable.  I was in my own personal jail.... one created by ME!  One created by my weight!  I honestly felt that I was beyond help anymore.  I had seen an orthopedic surgeon for extreme pain in my knees.  No one knew how much pain I was in!  I hid it!  Or TRIED to hide it.  Going to the grocery store would put me in the chair for the rest of the day from pain!  And carrying in the groceries?  Ugh... I would carry in one or two bags (as the added weight would PAIN my knees) and then have to sit in the chair, wait awhile and carry in more, repeat until done.  Then, it would take time to put them all away!  Yes! Going to the grocery store and taking care of the groceries could become an all day project!  I HURT!!!!!  My husband did not understand what was going on and was becoming to think I was LAZY!~ (I need to add that I would do these chores when he wasn't around to see how I couldn't do them!  he just saw the aftermath and must have wondered in his mind, what did I do all day?  lol)  And then the breathing!  Always out of breath.  Simple tasks such as changing the bed sheets was a chore and more!  I would want to stop and rest in the middle of that!  I think I was wearing blinders.  I think I didn't understand or better to say, I didn't want to understand what was going on with me!  And I was afraid!   I couldn't exercise because it hurt.  I was in a catch 22 and I couldn't get out of the situation.  Then my dr told me that my left knee was 90% gone and I would need surgery.  But had to lose weight for that! And couldn't have a cortisone shot because of all the fat cells and swelling from my lymphodemia!    Quite the situation I was in!  Pain, sadness and all of my own doing!  For a couple years I had considered weight loss surgery.  Hubby and I had gone thru the seminars and I had all the testing done and was cleared for it.  But I had to lose 30 lbs to even do that.  The small still voice of God was telling me this was not the answer for me.  Take Shape for Live (www.healthierishappier.tsfl.com) came into my life and the vehicle for losing weight and changing my habits!  Thank you, Lord!  It hasn't always been easy!  But I am learning to make the right choices!  In September I had lost enough weight the dr was able to give me a cortisone shot in my left knee!  The pain was relieved immediately and my mobility increased! YAHOO!  This week I completed the second shot in my first series of Orthovisc shots in both knees.  I am feeling relief!  I have gotten a Nordic Track exercise bike and am doing a mile and a half in the morning and a mile and a half in the evening after work!  I will increase this as I get comfortable with it.  Movement in my knee is 99.9% improved and I am living without constant pain all the time!  I feel like a new woman.  I feel like God has given me a new lease on life!  At Christmas we were taking pictures of all 16 of my grandchildren.  One of the younger ones ran out of the pic and was refusing to come back in. I scooped him up, loved him up and we both got in the picture!   6 months ago I could not have done that!  I don't think my children realized that!  Not just because I didn't like my pic taken but the pain of lifting that weight and standing would have been too much!    This truly is my story.  I am a healthier and happier person!  I know there are MANY MANY others out there with stories similar to mine.  I hope I can help encourage others to lose their body fat and get healthier and happier!  I have started coaching as a Take Shape for Life Coach!  My website is www.healthierishappier.tsfl.com      I am here to be an ear, an encouragement and to say if I can do this ANYONE can do this!   I want to make a difference to others that may be going thru the same experience as me - held hostage by a fat body and a mind that created it's own jail cell!  

Some exciting news to me:  My doctor says that I may not have to have a knee replacement on my left knee, now that I have lost weight.  Time will tell! That is jumping in the air kind of news!!!!  I LOVE THAT MAN!!!  lol  And...... I fit into my biking leathers!  I tried them on this past weekend and I can wear them again.  The bad news is that when I reach goal, I will need to buy new ones as they will be too big!  Oh, wait.. maybe that isn't such bad news!   :) :) :)  :) 

Healthier is Happier

I just celebrated my 61st birthday on Friday.  I had such a wonderful day and the whole weekend was fabulous! My husband and I took Friday off and we hopped on the Sounder train and went into Seattle and spend the day, just walking around exploring.  Spending the day with my best friend was FABULOUS!!!  When we got off the train I looked ahead of me to not one, not two but three flights of stairs to take us up to the street........I gulped ...and then took a deep breath. I was down over 90 lbs... I could do this!  I made it up those stairs and I was NOT gasping for breath when I got to the top!  YAHOO!  We had a fabulous day walking around the town and exploring a museum.  Even the rain and wind could not damper our fun!  5 months ago, I could not have done this!!  The weight, the pain of arthritis would have been too much.  As of last Saturday and now 5 months into this weight loss journey, I am down a total of 94.4 lbs.  I am SO thankful to Take Shape For Life using the medifast foods!!    

After we got home on Friday, my oldest son and his family came to help us celebrate and stay for the weekend.  We had such a wonderful, blessed time together!  I had surprised most of my family with this journey so they had not seen me since I had lost 19 lbs.  They are so happy for me and SO encouraging to me!  That is very important in the journey of weight loss to have the encouragement and support of your family and friends.  I am truly blessed because each one has and is lovingly and faithfully encouraging me and not tempting me to do things that I know I should not do on this journey.  

I have made a very big decision.  I have decided to be a health coach for Take Shape for Life.  My website is www.healthierishappier.tsfl.com    I just feel that there are others out there with a similar story to mine.  Feeling like they are at their wits end!  That nothing works for them and perhaps even considering weight loss surgery as I was but in their heart of hearts feeling this is not the answer!  Perhaps even having the surgery and finding that it is not getting them where they want to be!!!   I want to encourage others and be a part of their fantastic journey.  I know if I can do it, YOU/THEY can do it!!!  I am very excited about this!  

I am working on creating a healthy body and mind.  We can do this together!  Check out my website and contact me!  I would love to hear from you and I would love to be a part of encouraging you in your journey!!!

Reflecting.....

I was asked yesterday by a friend, what are some of the comments that I am hearing about my weight loss.  There have been many encouraging and very nice comments, but the comment that means the most to me is this.  My girlfriend was talking to me on the phone the other day.  I check in with her every week and let her know my weight loss for the week. She always has such wonderful encouragement for me but the one that REALLY stands out was this comment last week; "I can HEAR it in your voice, Marcia!"

I knew I was unhappy with myself, but I didn't know that it showed in my voice.  I thought I hid that...... guess you can't hide somethings from your closest friends.... I pray I never get to that point again.... 

I am so thankful for this journey to creating a thin healthy mind and body....

16 Weeks

We are celebrating birthdays at our house today.  Doug's brother and sister each have a birthday this week so I have made their mom's cake and frosting, orange with creamy nut frosting on her plate and in her carrier.  It is her recipe that she always made down to the fork marks on the top!  It doesn't look special but it is special to family.  No, I do not plan on having a piece and any leftovers will be sent home with all visitors! None will be left in the house.  It was a little difficult to mix up the frosting without taste testing it... but my three year old granddaughter was here to lick the beaters.

However I am celebrating today.  I am 5.6 lbs down from last week which gives me a total of 71.6 lb!!!  A very sweet elderly lady that I have made an acquaintance with on our every other week dinner with my father in law gave me a sweet compliment last night, which was great encouragement.  

I am working on getting my webpage started with Take Shape for Life and think I am going to call mine, "Lose Weight Get Healthy!"  I will post a link when I get it started. :)  Been pretty busy! 

15 Weeks into my Journey to Optimal Health

Wow! Has it actually been 15 weeks since I started this journey? Honestly, it does not seem that long. I have had my ups and downs and my temptations, but I honestly have not broken any of my guidelines. I have DREAMED about it, lol, a couple of times but I am feeling so much better and happy with the results that I want to see this thru and have resolved and committed to keeping this weight off and eating a healthier way. I am happy to report that my 15 week total weight loss is 66 pounds. This averages to 4.4 lbs per week. YES! I am happy with that.

Today was a visit to my orthopedic doctor about my knees. Although I have lost a lot of weight and taken even more pressure off my knees, they continue to give me distress. Saturday I walked 4 blocks to the coffee shop with my grandaughters and back again and I was in LOTS of pain the rest of the day! This is not acceptable for this 60 year old grandma!!! As the nurse took me to the room, I realized that she was not going to weigh me this time. I told her I needed to be weighed as the doctor needed to see on paper that I had been losing weight. I was actually 80 lbs down on their scales from what I was when I was there in May. The Dr. came in the door looking at my chart and his first words were; "CONGRATULATIONS!" He was delighted for me!!!! We discussed some options and I did come away this time with a cortizone shot in my left knee. It is the worst one. I can hardly believe it but it has already helped! Now I feel some other pain but the knee is much less!! I am praying for some time to strengthen this knee and maybe even some repair may take place as I do that. We will just see. For now, I have less pain and now I can work on getting out there and walking again!

How do some of us let ourselves get to this point? I honestly do not know! I do not have an answer for that. Perhaps it is that we take care of others and do not think of ourselves as that important. Perhaps it is unhappiness in our lives that we seek food for comfort too often. Perhaps it is that so many of our family events FOCUS on food as the main event! I am sure that there are multiple reasons and excuses for all of us. But I know that I am going to make a difference. That I am going to see this thru. I cannot talk about all of this without giving my Christ credit. Phil 1:13 tells us "I can do all things thru Him who gives us strength." I believe that. Only with the strength that the Lord gives me, can I follow thru on this. For me it is not in my strength.

Secondly, Take Shape for Life is an amazing program with the benefits of a health coach and the wisdom and knowledge of Dr. Wayne Anderson. This program is teaching me to make healthy and wise choices and will continue to do that. I have made a decision to be a health coach and am here to help and talk to anyone that is interested in losing their weight for life and starting their journey to optimal health. I am being honest when I tell you I was at the end of my rope. I honestly did not know where to turn and was considering weight loss surgery as my last hope. In my heart, I knew that I needed more than that and wanted more than that. I wanted the knowledge to make change in my life with my BRAIN not just my stomach. Not that all people with weight loss surgery don't make the right choices after, but for me, in my heart, I knew it was not best. Deciding to become of the Take Shape for Life program is one of the best things I have done for myself and for my family. I am so excited to see where this journey takes me. I am meeting wonderful friends and encouragement along the way!

My first 3 months!

3 months since I started my journey.  And what a journey!  :)  

Saturday is my normal day to weigh in.  Yesterday morning at 7 AM I hopped on the scales as normal.  I anticipated as the scales made their weigh up and down and up and down ..... stopped and ...... only 1.4 lbs for the week.... my old mind set was to be a tad disappointed... but my "thin" mindset kicked in!  "It is STILL in the right direction!" "Go get dressed and put on your new jeans with attitude!" ... so I did... and my day got brighter!  My jeans look fantastic, in my new thin mind.... And they did give me the bolster that I needed!  So then I did the math. Started my journey on June 11, yesterday was the 10th of September... down 58.6 lbs.  That is 19.5 lbs per month!  My goal was 20 and that was about as close as you can get ... rounds up to 20 so yes, I was happy.  This morning because it actually IS the 11th I decided to get on the scales again.... this time they registered 1.8 lbs down from yesterday!  Go figure!  So that makes 60.4 lbs and actually IS my 20 lbs per month!  LOL  Lesson learned.... water weight can affect the scales.  They are a measure and a tool, not something to set your attitude with!  My clothes tell me the difference.   I am now 1/3 of the way thru my journey. I am so excited for the next 1/3 of the way!

What are some things I have learned in this journey so far?  Water - it is important... it actually does raise your metabolism. In fact drinking a glass of ice water will increase your metabolism for the next 90 minutes.  And important fact to keep in mind while exercising.   Healthy choices are important.  I honestly do feel better.  My lymphodemia is actually improving. This is not something that I will ever overcome, but it is improving and that is a God send!   I saw a pizza delivery car the other day.  I thought to myself, What I would give for a pizza!  My new "thin" mind kicked in and said, "No, I would GLADLY give up pizza to continue in my journey for optimal health!"    I don't feel deprived.  I have my portion controlled meal replacements that are small but many of them are packed with flavor.  They are not overly sweet but there are some chocolate options. :)  I am learning a lot from Dr. Wayne Anderson's Habits of Health and am incorporating these into my husband's healthy, low glycemic meals.  I am learning the importance of a journal to log my progress and thoughts.  I need to remember these things.  And I am learning that my success can and does influence others.  My daughter is excited to begin a healthier journey in her life.  :)    

Today, I feel better about myself and more confident than I did 3 months ago. :)  I love Take Shape for Life! :)

Tears of "Gladditude"

An old classmate and friend coined a word.  "Gladditude"  I love that word!  This morning I cried tears of gladditude!  With my 57.2 weight loss, I needed to purchase some clothing so that I didn't go to work nekkid or have my pants fall off of me at a most unopportune time!  lol  I went to the store and purchased a couple pairs of slacks and tops.  They were 2 and 3 sizes smaller than when I started my weight loss journey.  Yes.... tears of joy and thankfulness!  God has answered my prayers in this journey to optimal health.  I feel better mentally and physically and am thankful for His hearing and answering in HIS time!  :)

~*~ WEEK 12 ~*~

"The degree you allow obstacles in life to be a distraction is your choice ... don't look where you don't want to go ... what you look at, you create more of. Always stay focused (keep your eye on the prize) at what you want regardless of what is going on around you." - Susan Milligan


I love this quote! It speaks volumes to me in my weight loss journey. Sometimes it is difficult to say the least as we look at where we were, where we still might be, rather than to the big picture of the future! I have this posted on my door at work, it is part of my "smash/joy" book. It is on my desk at home and at work and have posted it to my Facebook page! Part of my journey to optimal health is creating a healthy thin mind! This quote captures that need. If I allow myself to think negatively, I defeat my purpose. This morning I am down 57.2 lbs! I have lost 7.2 BMI according to the charts! I am also one third of the way to my goal!!!!!! However, my clothes are falling off of me! lol I hesitate to purchase much because I don't plan to be wearing it very long! But the mind can still be a tricky thing. Some times I catch myself thinking with my heavier body... I can't see all the weight gone. I still see the belly, the legs, the arms and makes me want to be down! But the "healthy mind" me cannot allow it. My mind has to see the "ME" at the end of this tunnel! I have to walk like the "thin" person inside of me. I can already see a part of the OLD me coming back. The more confident person that I used to be. The one not embarrassed by her size to go up and talk to someone. So again this morning, I am filled with gladditude. I praise the Lord, who is the strength behind me. And a couple of very special friends who encourage me along the way. It really REALLY helps to have friends that CAN see the weight loss and encourage me and let me know they are proud of me. Not because I want the compliments but because there is something in their true and heartfelt encouragement that helps me put one step in front of the other and keep marching toward that goal and the continued goal of OPTIMAL HEALTH ... all of which will help me in my testimony to the Lord! I am excited to see what more there is to come! :)

10 Weeks behind me!

10 weeks already.... And the past couple of weeks have been mentally difficult for me in my weight loss journey... beginning to get a bit weary and thoughts of wanting foods that really are not the BEST choices for me.  And drinking my water has been a challenge!!!  I mean really!  I try to drink 100 oz a day, 20 of those before I go to work and I just have not been able to do it!  I do drink a lot of water, normally so this should not be a challenge but think it has been that MENTAL thing that I HAVE to!!!  lol  So last night I was pounding my water at the later hours.... and of course was up 5 times, YES, 5 TIMES during the night!  So that is an area that I am committing to prayer!  But the rewards for staying strong and enduring we shown on the scales this morning.  My total weight loss since June 11, is now 48 lbs EVEN!  THANK YOU, LORD, for not letting me get discourage and give into the desires of the flesh!  It is difficult for me to really see the loss because I look at myself everyday... but I can see it.  My ring finger is not all chunky and I can take my ring off and on.  Yes, I was actually thinking before and that is part of the reason for setting weight goals, that I would have to have my wedding band cut off and sized larger!  I really did not want to do that! It was part of my internal battle!!!

I don't want to lose sight of my goals and one of the most important goals is to be able to enjoy my grandchildren.   So in forming that goal, it is important to me to gain a healthy mindset!  Take Shape for Life is the tool that is working for me and I am so thankful to it and to Jenny, my coach!   

One highlight this week:  My youngest granddaughter weighs 49 lbs.  Picking her up makes me realize the "weight" of what I have lost!

~*~ Week 7 ~*~

Week 7!  The journey to weight loss is not an easy path.  There is not a magic pill you can take to help you lose weight.  Well, it appeared there USED to be but then they found out that phen fen did damage to your heart!  Many people opt for weight loss surgery to help them in the quest to optimal weight.  And many don't find that an answer!  Believe me, I was OH SO close to opting for this surgery.   It certainly was not a option that I took lightly.  A lot of thought, prayer and research went into it.  Finally I decided that I had to do this without surgery!  I want to lose weight but I don't want to compromise the body that I have left!  The past 7 weeks have not been without struggles.  I have had some stress in my life.  And stress is often a calling to find something comforting to eat!  Comforting? Hmmmm... only in my head!  lol  Have to develop habits of health!  Some days I open up the refrigerator and there is some goodie just looking out at me and my temptation is to eat it!  Not hungry just see something good and it beckons me!  HABITS OF HEALTH!  My eating does NOT have to control me!  I have to control it!   Last night I dreamed that I went off my diet and ate things that I shouldn't have.  I was relieved when I woke up and found out it was just a dream!  I don't need to derail my own success!  So getting on the scales this week, I am very happy to announce that I my total loss to date is 36.2 lbs!  Thank you, Lord!   I have a long road in front of me, but that is ok!  I have the tools and the support to be successful!    I am changing my habits and my mindset and looking forward to each day and new week! :)    My hubby has not been following the exact same plan but I am cooking "cleaner" and healthier and he is reaping the benefits also.  He is down 14 lbs since his last diabetes check up in April and his blood levels and cholestrol levels are FANTASTIC!  I am really happy for him.  He really does not have much weight to lose but he is supportive to me. :)  Love you, babe! 

~*~ The journey on ~*~

I am happy to announce that I am 32.8 lbs lighter as of Saturday morning's weigh in. :) 

From Dr. A's Habits of Health:

Secrets to Success

1. Eat one PCMR, portion controlled meal replacements, every three hours. Don’t skip meals even if you’re not hungry.  It’s absolutely critical to fuel as scheduled- in fact, your weight loss may be slower if you don’t.
2. Get some extra rest. You may feel a little tired during the first three days as your body switches on its fat-burning mechanism and gears up to use its stores of fat.
3. Drink at least eight 8-ounce glasses of water every day.
4. Eat Slowly.
5. Stay busy and avoid sights and smells that remind you of food, especially during the first few days. Soon enough, your own energy stores will kick in and you’ll feel more in control.
6. Use your support system. If you have a coach, call them.
7. Limit caffeine to no more than three servings a day. You may find that your body is more sensitive to the effects of caffeine, making this a great time to cut back on your daily consumption.
8. Avoid alcohol. It causes dehydration, throws you out of the fat-burning state you’ve worked so hard to achieve, and It’s a powerful appetite stimulant.
9. If you slip up, just get right back on track. But remember, it will take about two to three days after a slip-up to get back into a fat-burning state.
10. Keep a journal. This is a great way to monitor your progress and help you focus.
11. Avoid exercise for the first three weeks. Or, if you do choose to exercise reduce your usual amount by half. No huffing, puffing, or sweating.

~*~ Saturday and 5 weeks into my journey ~*~

Any day you get on the scale and the numbers go down is a good day! Today I have donated somewhere 29 lbs! :) I am loving this and I am preparing myself by learning new habits of healthy eating! I am feeling a bit more energetic and look forward to the day my arthritic knees get the message that they are carrying less weight! hahaha...

~*~ CHOICES ~*~

Life is about choices.  Every day nearly every moment we make choices that affect our life.  Many choices we make are mindless, or automatic.  We don't put a lot of thought into them  My journey to optimal health is a choice.  It has become a very conscientious choice.  Walking thru the grocery store there are temptations all around.... Even something so silly as Oreo cookies!  Something that maybe I would not give much of thought to before but today I looked at that package and thought "OH... that would taste good!"  Time for the good angel and the devil on the shoulder!  lol   No one would know... if you had just one.. you know all those things we try to talk ourselves into... You will be happy to know that the right choice was made and I walked past without lingering, stopping or putting them in my cart.  :)  

I started my journey 30 days ago.  Today I am 21 lbs lighter.  It is good. It is working and this is where I need to be and want to be to achieve my goal.  The weight loss portion of this journey is only step one.  I am thankful for the Habits that I am learning and practicing to live my goal!   

"Optimal health isn't a destination, but a state of being that you achieve -- a change in orientation whereby you create a new state of being that revolves around making the daily choices that support health."  Dr A's Habits of Health

Do you want to know what Weigh In said today???

I am very happy this day.  The scales say another 5 lbs down!  I just sigh a silent sigh of relief and thank God!!!  It has been a difficult week, personally with a job situation, but I was able to deal with that and stay on track with my weight loss journey.  I have to say there were a couple of evenings where the desire for a snack reared it's ugly head!  But I just grabbed my water and actually went to bed at just a tad earlier time those 2 nights and was completely satisfied!   Sometimes, I look out to the future and think... OH... I don't want to do this for a year (or longer if need be!) but then I think of the end results and the desire to stay at a healthy weight and be able to do some of the things I love doing and it gives me encouragement to stay on this journey!   :)

Authenticity

I listened to a video this morning of Wynonna singing "I Can only Imagine."  Beautiful song and she shares some real emotion as she begins the song.  But she said something that spoke to my heart - "Honey, let 'em see the brokenness.  That is how the Light shines out!"  What great words!  God wants our authenticity, not our facade of Christianity.  We are real people, with real problems, real lives!  We struggle with everything out there!  Me, with my weight issues, struggles at work, etc!  That is how others see Christ IN us!  When we FACE the issues, when we express how we fail and how CHRIST picks us up, they see that Christ LOVES us and cares!  It is sad that not all Christians see this.  They feel that they have to appear to be perfect, struggling in their silence because they can't share their shortcomings and struggles to find support and guidance in the brothers and sisters in Christ that are around us.  Or shun the one that has stumbled because the pass judgement based NOT on the Truths of God but on their fear of being in the same place as that person!  OH how important it is for us to share our shortcomings with others so that they realize that they are NOT alone and let the Light of Christ shine thru us so that others may find that joy also.

It has been a difficult week for me in the fact that I have started a new job and the person training me is not leaving because she wants to leave.  She is struggling with that and although I do understand and feel her pain, it is making my job difficult.  She is struggling on letting go and I am having a hard time on getting from her what I need to know before she leaves.  And although it is hard for me, I am trying to have compassion and caring for her.  Actually working has helped with my weight loss journey because I don't have too much down time to think about food!  lol  And a bit easier to time my meals, but some of the stress when I get home gives me the desire to eat.  I have not given into that but found other things to keep me busy (like a messy house) to keep my mind off of that!  The good news was when I stepped on the scale yesterday, I was another 2 lbs down!  I wasn't going to weigh but just had to!  Thanks for your continued support!!! :)   

Inspirational Quote!

A tale about habits: Inside of every person a battle is raging between 2 wolves. One wolf is bad & represents compulsiveness & habits of disease. The other wolf is good & represents self-control & habits of health. These 2 wolves are constantly fighting, pulling us in opposite directions, causing us to stumble or succeed. Which wolf is going to win? The answer is whichever one you feed. Feed your good habits.

Wow... this really says it all! I am printing this quote out and posting on my refrigerator!

And today the scale says...

I am happy to say that I am down another 6 lbs!  PTL!  I am soooo pleased.  Last night's dinner went very well.  I stuck to my plan and I think that was the key.  I had a plan and knew what I was going to eat and stuck to it.  :)  Another dream though.  This time in it the dog had a bone on the front porch and was not going to let anyone take it from him! HAHA... do you think that is related somehow to my weight loss journey! :)  

Not much really to share today, just that I am happy and pleased with how things are going.  Tonight I am fixing a Pork Tenderloin.  I am allowed 5 oz of it.  :)  I will be grilling it on my indoor grill.  I have not grilled a pork tenderloin so this will be a new thing for me.  I plan to season it up with a nice seasoned rub and enjoy it! :)  Happy Saturday!