Wow. It has been three weeks since I have posted here. I am struggling with depression. The holidays started it and the weather, I am sure hasn't helped it. It is difficult to say that I am struggling with depression because somewhere it is BRANDED on my brain that as a Believer, I have no reason, etc to be depressed. Well, I guess that depression doesn't need a reason and there is no reasoning with it. But there comes a time when one must confess defeat and realize defeat. I am working on attitude but I think this time the doctor needs to be consulted. This is really more than I want to admit and say but I guess sometimes we need to openly discuss our struggles to help us get thru them and to also share with others that may be struggling with the same issues and to realize that we aren't alone.
So, today, I let you know that I have been struggling and that I am going to come out of this. A few weeks ago, my favorite tea shop put on a class about tea. I wanted to go but no one could go with. I didn't want to go alone. I made myself get in the car and drive there. When I got in the parking lot there was not one parking space. I was a bit early. No parking spot, I was NOT going to stay. I was not going to go. I left the parking lot. Talked to myself and said this is ridiculous. Drove around the big block and came back. Guess what a car had left! Actually more than one car had left! I parked and went to the class. I am so glad that I did. I am so glad that I overcame my feelings and went. The class was tremendous! I would have missed out on so much and I would have missed the joy that it brought me that day which HAD to help this feeling. Gosh, even as I write this I want to cry! Good grief! LOL
I am going to start posting again. I am going to start working on crafts again. I am going to pick up where I have left off on organizing and I am going to smile. I have LOTS to smile about - 15 reasons are age 14 to 7 months! LOL So, that is my story for now. And could use your prayers and next I will post some pics of my sweet 5 year old granddaughter's birthday!
So thanks for listening. Thank you for caring and thanks for sticking with me! :)
Matthew 10:30 "God even knows how many hairs are on your head."